The webster dictionary defines Frustration as … a deep chronic sense or state of insecurity and dissatisfaction arising from unresolved problems or unfulfilled needs.
It describes perfectly the feeling I’ve been feeling with my drawing talents. What I thought was perfect isn’t so perfect to others. I drew a Chinese Zodiac chart for my Mom on Mothers Day and she came to me asking for a redo bcuz my Chinese Zodiac Animals were outta order. I redrew it in the proper order … Rat, Ox, Tiger, Rabbit, Dragon, Snake, Horse, Ram, Monkey, Rooster, Dog, Boar. But she still wasn’t satisfied and this time her redo request was that my Dragon looked more like a Alligator and my Ram, Boar, and Ox also needed a redo. Apparently to her the Ram is a sheep with horns when Rams come in many varieties. I drew a sorta mountain goat like ram. In the end I redrew this Chinese Zodiac chart probably 10+ times.
Another friend who I’ve been drawing this for his website also requested me to redo some of the things I drew for him. It makes me appreciate those who draw for a living such as Animators and Fashion Designer sketch artist who probably have to deal with redrawing a million times to meet the satisfaction of the Cartoon producer or the Fashion Designer who’s gonna be making the sketches come to life. I can’t imagine working for a animation company who makes me redo a drawing of a dog or mouse a million times til they like it.
I often draw things and think they’re perfect but to others it seems my drawings are a knit pickers dream as they come to me and say this is wrong and that should be redone and this too. BAH !! This is why I dropped outta Art class in High School cuz my Art teacher saw nothing but my flaws in everything I did or made. I’m frustrated and snapped my pencil. I never thought ever in my Life that I’d ever start to hate my favorite hobby. I need a break from drawing for now or else my head is gonna snap just like my pencil.